Ding Dong of Doom

• by barbmartin
• 2007-09-18 02:09:26
• Coping
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• 4 comments

Hi, I had my pacemaker put in 2 years ago this month and was so scared I didn't know what to do. I posted a few messages and eventually started feeling better. I had passed out once in the back yard and just thought I was over doing. Then a week later passed out at work and then 5 times before the ambulance took me away and they put a pacemaker in right away. I'm 100% dependant and have had some anxiety attacks. One thing that does bother it is big powerful speakers. I went to a work party and knew they had stereo speakers, but thought I would just stay away from them, within an hour my heart was racing and I could hardly breathe. My husband got me out of there fast and we found out later they had mounted wireless speakers to the underside of the tables and on every wall, even behind pictures. Once outside I was better, but called the doctor from the car. He said I was fine, I wasn't going to die, go home and get some sleep. When I saw him the next day the check on the pacemaker came back fine. I still do feel tired, but work every day, take care of my grandkids and run my own business as well and I'll be 60 in December.
I've found even family members forget...even though you can't see it, it's still there and for me, I do get anxious and sometimes think too much about what could go wrong and work myself into a tizzy. I still have some sharp pain in the scar area, but the doctor says that's normal because I'm "young." I get upset when they check it and shut it down to see if my heart will kick in again. It ususally doesn't so they put it back on again. I don't like that at all, it just means I have to be vigilant about getting the battery checked.
Don't let the folks who want to scare you get the best of you, education is the best defense. ...and for the lady who said that doctors interfere with God's will, I believe that God gives the doctors the knowledge and skill to keep us alive! I have a daughter who was diagnosed with cancer at 1-1/2 and given a 20% chance to live for 6 months. She is 27 years old now, after 2-1/2 years of chemo and 9 operations she's healthy, happy and graduating from college this year! God love the medical profession!