nervous

so I go in the morning for my second PM. They don't know if I need new wires or not yet... One of the leads attached itself to the aorta and caused a paricardialo effusion that had over 2.5 liters, has anyone else ever had anyone like this before??? Have you gotten a second one? How did it go? I'm kind of nervous. It's going to be at 6:30am and I've never talked to anyone else with these circumstances... I'm tired of hearing that I'm in everyone's prayers and thoughts... It's sweet, but gets old... I'm sure everyone here knows what I mean. Can anyone relate?

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Good luck

by Cycledoc - 2008-01-14 10:01:44

I've been fortunate with my brief pacemaker experience and not had your problem.

With the lead causing an effusions it's likely they will change the lead as well. By the time you get this it will be over, hopefully all will have gone well.

I share your fatigue with prayers and thoughts, Good luck.

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disrespectful

by jessie - 2008-01-14 10:01:57

i have never heard anyone so disrespectful of others or rude as people here are very caring. i can't believe this remark would be made even by one who felt that way. good luck you you young lady jessie

cycledoc

by jessie - 2008-01-15 01:01:39

sorry to hear you are fatiqued by prayers or thoughts of others at this site. i myself was uplifted and valued all these wonderful people and have made some real friends whom i am hoping to meet in person.so i guess we are all different. my doctor i know prays and that helps me to know he can't accomoplish all on his own without some help. have a great day!!!!!!!!!jessie

even after

by jessie - 2008-01-15 01:01:40

even after the initial people you meet you meet others who have problems and you support them. i have some wonderful friends all over the world. peter in england kay and billie in australia. they support you when needed too. how can a little prayer hurt ? it can only help so please have an open mind. love,jessie also also rdelvis07 and she is young and she likes support. we are only trying to do that dear.

hi anne

by jessie - 2008-01-15 01:01:56

are you just at your wits end and you have to lash out at someone? if so we still love you and we will still pray for you and hope you are okay. you are young and this is not a picnic or a walk in the park. so okay let us know how are things going afterwards love,jessie and i will be praying for you because all the prayers i had i am sure brought me thru a tough time and all the people here and you know who you were..plumerman, pacergirl, step_ford wife, bowlrbob, auntisamm, lenora, . these were only a few who were there for me and i believe god works thru people. he puts people in our lives when we need them if we ask. so just mello out and get this donel ove,jessie

To the young hearted woman.....

by Christmmpace - 2008-01-15 03:01:11

Hello Anne,

It was brought to my attention to read your post. I read this posting and I wonder how frustrated you most be about all you've gone through and what your faced with. I know things are not as any young woman at your age would want them to be, but, you must understand that many of us here are having or have had your problems and the only way to sometimes get through the walls of emotional and physical pain is to hear someone say, "My thoughts are with you" or "I'm praying for you." In many cases these words are used to up left someone's spirits. I know when you said this, you were just wanting straight forward responses from those who have some knowledge of what your faced with. Although I appreciate your honesty, it's sometimes hard for some of us to take your words that we long to hear from others as meaningless.
I'm hoping that you're okay and things went as planned. Your recovery is far more important then a few words that could of been taken out of context. I just want you to know that no matter what you think or how you're viewing us here at the club we're still your Family in Hearts. Take care and may your heart be filled with a new happiness.

Christmmpace
P. S. You're in my thoughts and truly in my prayers.

Jessie...

by anne8486 - 2008-01-15 04:01:49

I really think you took what I was saying too personally. I come here to hear from others who I can relate to. Perhaps I was mistaken at what I thought this site was for. I live in a small town where everyone knows everything in a matter of minutes. I can't go anywhere or have a regular day where I go about my business without someone coming up and grabbing on to me and trying to pray for me. Not the dry cleaners, the bank, the post office, a store.... no where... and every once in a while it would be sweet. And I DO appreciate all of them, who should I turn to when I don't want sympathy and all I want is the facts... I thought that's what this site was for... if I'm wrong. I won't bother checking back with it... For those of you I offended, I'm sorry. For those of you that understood my 'fatigue' (cycledoc) I appreciate it.

Anne

Anne

by cottontop - 2008-01-15 08:01:52

First, I think that was good that you explained as to why you made the remark and I know you didn't say it to offend anyone.
Second, the grass is not always greener on the other side. These people who pray for you really do care about you. What if no one ever said they thought about you or would keep you in your prayers? That would be a pretty lonely,cold place I would imagine. Just some food for thought.
Third, hope everything is going well and hope to hear from you soon.
Take care,
Amy

Thanks

by anne8486 - 2008-01-15 10:01:12

Thanks for understanding. I felt so horrible today when I got back from the hosptial and checked this and saw that I had offended some people. I know it would be so much worse if I had no one... I love everyone I've got. I know I'm lucky and blessed more than I'll ever know.

okay

by jessie - 2008-01-15 11:01:13

don't worry for a minute. we are a very supportive group of people and so you see yes you did hurt some of us me for sure. i am not like i said overly religious but i am spiritual and i live my life that way. this is the pits for one so young as you. i hope you get lots of rest and don't overdue it okay take care anne jessie don't worry everyone says things when they have had it up to here!

What?

by cottontop - 2008-01-15 12:01:21

I pray that your surgery went well. I can't imagine that anyone could say that you are "tired of hearing that you are in everyone's prayers and thoughts". If you really mean that then why do you even get on this site? We all truly care about one another. Even though we have not met in person. If not for others prayers most of us might not be alive to encourage and help each other . With God's help a lot of us take it one day at a time. You have a right to your beliefs but you also have a right to respect others. As I was always taught if you don't have something nice to say then don't say anything. I will definitely have you at the top of my prayer list tonight.
Take care and God bless you,
Amy

A better day for you....

by pacergirl - 2008-01-16 12:01:47

Hey Anne,8486,

I am glad to see you are back from the hospital. Sometimes we have horrible days. It is the way it goes. However when I look around I can always find someone who is worse off than I. I am thankful that it isn't the other way around.

I will not tell you I will keep you in my prayers. I will tell you that you today a young girl came into our clinic and it was the saddest thing in the world to hold her as she cried. I felt her sobs and her tears run down my neck. It was the saddest thing in the world. To be so young, 20yo, single, pregnant, alone and trying to support herself as a waitress. She has suffered from some terrible accidents in her young life. I shall help her in anyway I can. Starting with a good heartfelt prayer said quietly to myself as I held her.

Sometimes life is very difficult. Prayer helps me.... So if it makes you feel tiresome...I will try to avoid telling you what I do.
I hope that tomorrow will be a better day for you.
Pacergirl

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